It’s past midnight but i’m still feeling lazy to go to sleep. my body is tired and my eyes are sleepy, but i’m just too lazy to go to bed. i’m supposed to be right on my bed at this kind of time >_< instead i’m just browsing with my laptop doing some downloading and other unimportant things ^^ it feels like a lot going through inside my head, but i can only recognize just one problem. my little kitten has been missing since three days ago and she still isn’t home. i’ve been feeling (and maybe acting) like a jerk today because i can’t get myself focused no matter how i try to keep myself busy. i hate complaining and being pissed off but i guess i do that anyway sometimes; times like these. because although i hate it, it kinda helps when you’re confused. that’s the bad side of me, i guess. when I’m in a bad mood, i could be a real bastard. really. i was even pissed off seeing a Jpop PV, lol can you believe that? xD i could like, pout all the time and make people around me feel uncomfortable, lol ^^ at times like these, i prefer to keep my mouth shut. because i can’t seem to talk properly when i’m in a real bad mood xD i can’t even talk properly when i’m in good mood, how worse do you think it will be when i’m in bad mood? lol xD well, i mean this is one of my negatives; everything i say seems to be wrong. even with a good intentions, sometimes my words came out wrong. when i don’t mean to hurt, my sentence hurts at the end. if it wasn’t for these two, then my words would be the object of laugh although i mean it seriously (^^; ) of course i try to be careful, but i guess being careful just isn’t my talent xD so i guess.. i guess, this is one of the reasons why, i prefer to keep my mouth shut. i do it almost all the time and it’s stacking that now i become a silent person like this, lol xDDD

*looks at clock* hh…i really need to go to sleep >_<  i still don’t want to, though.  hmm..i know someone who feels sad whenever it rains ^^ i guess maybe we all have this kind of moment. being sad at a certain moment. for me personally, it is when i put myself on bed to go to sleep. i rarely go straightly to sleep. i would usually recall a lot of things.. like, the moments i have gone through today, the things i have said to people, the things that people said to me, the past, myself, etc. but the thing i always remember and think of before i go to sleep are my beloved ones. i’m too shy to mention names, though ^^ one of these beloved ones is of course my friends. honestly i don’t have a lot of friends. i can even count them by fingers. but i feel like the friends i have are the best ones anyone could ever have in the world ^^ the things that flow inside my mind before i go to sleep usually decide whether i’ll be sad or glad just before i close my eyes. tonight, i guess i’ll be sad. and i’m too lazy to go through it, lol xD but i have to, anyway. it’s past 01.00!! *rushes to bed*